Unsure

Unsure of how I feel today.  My heart is still hurting and my face is covered in tear stained streaks.  I still do not understand why.  It makes no sence to me was I not deserving of the truth?  I feel like such an idiot for believing and trusting that we had been nothing but completely honest with eachother.  Relationships especially marriages are built on trust and honesty and to think that ours was not.  I trusted him to be honest with me, but have found out that really there was no trust there as there was only partial honesty.  I feel as if everything was based on a lie.  How can I look at him and say I believe him or that I trust him with everything in me again?  I believed for 4 yrs that he had been completely honest with me about everything.....only to find out that he had lied to me repeatedly and he had been givin many chances to tell me the truth, but he just kept lying to me.  Everything we had built our life on was nothing more than a joke.  How do I move on with him from here?  Why should I trust him?  My heart is broken and only time can mend it.....but can we make it?